The Institution

My councilor asked me to keep an anxiety journal for the next week. Some of it is going to be kept in notepad so I am using this as a way to back it up.

Around 2:15 pm on Monday
Left the counciling center and was planning on stopping by Copper Cellar to put in an application. Felt anxiety (fluttering in my chest). I was thinking about my shaggy hair. "What if I don't get the job?" Level of anxiety: 7.

6:56 pm.
Watching a movie, "Hearts in Atlantis". Thought of Amanda and worry that she is going to make another wrong decision. Anxiety:9

7:15 pm
Anxiety reached a 10. Cut my hip. The sight, taste, and smell of my blood brought anxiety down to a 6.

7:42 pm
Anxiety down to a 2. Settling down to watch the olympics and go to bed before work.

1:13 pm on Tuesday
Sitting here reading a web comic online. Not sure of the cause or what I was thinking about a few minutes ago. Anxiety: 4

2:54 pm
Watching a movie. Thinking about not ever doing anything with my brain. Anxiety: 6

5:00 pm
Surfing the web. Not sure why anxiety has returned because wasn't thinking about anything in particular. Anxiety: 8

5:46 pm
Working on brushing up on calculus but am also thinking about my interview at 7. I worry that I won't get the job. Fluttering in chest. Anxiety:9

6:50 pm
Driving in my car to my second interview at the Roaming Gnome. Thinking about how much it would suck not to get the job. Hands shaking, mind racing, and fluttering in my chest. Anxiety: 10