Grindel's Lil' Midlife Crisis Online

Someone once told me that you can speak things into existence. That is the vein in which I'm making this post.

Things I am working on in my life right now, in no particular order:

• Taking two college courses, basically a couple of sophomore-level classes
• Working my full-time job
• Doing a considerable amount of contracting work on the side
• Helping manage my wife's salon
• Raising my son
• Nurturing and improving my relationship with my wife
• Doing the various projects my church wants
• Being a decent Best Man for my brother-in-law's upcoming wedding
• ...
• ...
• ...
• Doing a lot of gaming

Which of these things is not like the other? Still, even keeping gaming as a minor distraction, that's a TON of work. Not just a ton of work, but a ton that I really cannot skimp on, in any area. I have got to do this. I pull this off for a year and I am set. Most of my bills will be paid, I'll have all my educational credentials in place, I'll be in a GREAT spot in life. It's like it's this rite of passage that I have to get through. I really have no idea what's on the other side, but I know that everything I've lived and done up to this point is a prelude to it.

If I can just keep going, if I can just keep from burning out. Mostly I worry about my health. I skimp on sleeping for three days and I'm pretty much guaranteed a sinus infection. Hmmm... maybe I should look into some sort of immune system booster? And then there's the 25lbs to lose, which really should be on that list too.

I CAN do this. I HAVE to do this. There are Great Things waiting for me... if I can just keep focused.